A Drop of Hope

A DROP OF HOPEJust having a Drop of Hope, will lighten your burdens and ease your mind.

With Fibromyalgia you become accustomed to the storms of pain.  Some days are cloudier than other days  with all-over-body pain, stabbing you in all the wrong places; with an overcast of IBS, lightening headaches, along with tinglings and numbing of counterparts.  Though I am a sufferer of Fibromyalgia since 1990 along with chronic pain,  Gerd, IBS, Arthritis, and Sjorgen’s Eye Disease, Fibromyalgia still surprises me with its numerous faces of pain.

For instance, three weeks ago, I woke up to a no-name returning pain visitor, who superceded in intensity over my other daily Fibromyalgia pains, as it attacked my body in the form of a severe pain flare up of spasms in the back of my head, neck, shoulder, and back radiating from my head across both shoulder blade, down my left arm and fingers. It feels like spasmodic electrical shock waves was rotating through my rotator cuff accompanied with bursitis and tendonitis.  neck shoulder and back painIts grip on my body was so painful,  I fought not to cry, but it finally brought me to tears.  I prayed for mercy to come to my rescue and give me a little relief, if only for a moment. Though now,  it is easing up a little, I am still suffering with this pain, unable to properly take a shower, lift anything, turn my head. It hurts even when I do not move.  I sleep on about 2-3 heating pads every night, however  with little relief.

Living with an invisible pain has humbled me in many ways.  I listen more to the needs of others, and  understand better how we all are suffering from something.  I’ve learned to reach out to my inner spirit for my strength, and to call on the only hope that I have, which is my savior Yahshua in me.  This is what keeps me focused and walking tall with my head up and smiling, looking as if I feel great, and in the very best of health, yet my body is screaming from the inside out.  I rely on hope, that in spite of what I must suffer in this body I wear, that my savior will carry me through it all.  Hope and Faith is intangible, and are invisible as Fibromyalgia is an invisible pain.   Hope is what keeps me holding on with an assurance that this too shall pass, as all things do.

Hope makes me think of an article that I was reading about how a single drop of water can shatter a rock and cause it to splinter into hundreds of pieces.  Rocks are very hard to break, but a single drop of water found its way through a small crack in the rock (stone) and froze, thus expanding and enlarging the crack.  Likewise, a single drop of hope gives us the strength we need to endure another moment, day, or years if we have to, without giving up.

I marvel that a blade of grass can break through cement and resurrect above the earth.  What power is this that we walk amongst everyday, but never give it a real thought?  The power in that single drop of water, a drop of hope, and a blade of grass,  is the same power that we have latent within ourselves, we are just not conscious that it exists.  This is what living with Fibromyalgia has taught me; how that the power of my savior Yahshua in me, is the only one who can resurrect me from my frailties, my pain discomfort, and my doubts — instilling within my heart and mind, faith, patience, sobriety, and hope for a daily resurrection.

Yes, I have pain all over my body everyday, I wake up with it and go to sleep with it.  There was a time when I did not think I could bear such pain and live my life too, but I have.  I have learned how to not digest this invisible pain whereas it overtake my mind, body and soul with fret, anger, lack of faith, or feelings of hopelessness.  I force myself to do what needs to be done, and not feed my pain with what it wants.  It is determined to drag me down, and I am determined to fight harder with faith and a little drop of hope, which is better than having no hope at all.

In closing, just think about the reason for our trials and sufferings while in this body, for it is to teach us what we need to know in order to endure the race, because there is only one winner — and he is spirit, invisible to our natural eyes, but not to our heart and mind.  He is our only hope!


MEDITATE…On the Simplicity of Life

ImageWe seem to expect for everything to evolve around our lives; we use technology to find ways to push a button to change our course of directions when things do not go our way, or to delete those who do not fit into the of our little world, or to persuade the thoughts of others to become bias, self-centered, or prejudice, to stereotype their minds to believing an untruth, just to gain power and control.  Life really is not meant to be complicated.   As Confucius says: “Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated”.

I have heard many things in my life, but there is one simple saying that stays with me…complexity creates fog, but simplicity clears it.  So true is this saying;  keeping it simple seems so hard for some to understand, to accept, or to humble ourselves to the fact that the basic simplicity of life, is as simple as 1-2-3. It would do us good to take a moment of our day to just meditate on the simplicity of life.

Have you ever thought about the seasons, and how they change from summer, fall, and winter each year, over and over again.  It’s an unerring pattern that dictates their function and purpose.  Why do the birds fly south for the winter? Who tells them when it is time to make their journey, or to return? What about the ants, the bees, the butterflies, and their friends — where, and why do they leave us when it turns cold?

There is a reason for all things.  Nothing is just happenstance.  There are no accidents, because all things are purposed, whether we believe it or not.  As hard as this may be to accept, our pain and suffering is purposed as well, just like the rain is to water the earth, and the sun to give life to all.  These are simple, yet vital things that occurs everyday, yet we so often take them for granted, because we are so wrapped up in ourselves.  We do not take the time to acknowledge anything else, not even the simple things in life, like the involuntary beating of our heart everyday.

I just thought I would take a moment to share with you my thoughts, as I meditate on these simple, yet powerful facts of life.  After all, I am only human, and I have no power of my own.  I am not in control whereby I can change life, the minds of others, or how my body feels.  If I could, I would not have Fibromyalgia, or any other pain; the world would not be suffering of its numerous diseases; and it would be peace on earth, and in the hearts of mankind — for I would make it so.  But, it is  not my purpose, it is not my story.  I am written in this script just as we all are.  I pray that my remaining chapters keep me humble, and grateful for what I do have.

My message to you is: there is beauty and power in simplicity.  Learn how to keep life simple, enjoy, and meditate on that which we do have, and appreciate the simplistic, and effortless breath of life.   Just breathe….now how simple is that?

“The Doctor’s call us Patients, I Call us Instruments of Circumstance…

sprouting seedThe doctors call us patients; I call us Instruments of Circumstance.  We all are instruments, designed and used the way we were purposed to be used.  Our circumstance is Fibromyalgia, a condition or manner in which we now live, which is a life of pain.  We did not deal ourselves the Fibromyalgia cards, they were dealt to us. All we can do is to learn how to play our cards by understanding this pain syndrome, and methods of coping with it.  If we had control over it, I am sure we would all just zap it right out of our lives, so that we can lead a normal life.  Instead, this is our “new normal” sort-to-speak, for those with Fibromyalgia, or any chronic pain condition.

The experience I had when diagnosed with  Fibromyalgia, was depressing to me; it was  likened unto a death state in my mind; and learning how to re-adjust my entire life with friends, family, and my job, was consuming, as I felt buried in my daily pains, because they had become a part of my everyday life. But then I remembered, that everything that dies, has to be buried, and after a burial is a resurrection.  This analogy gave me hope!  Why? Because it reminds me of a dead that we bury (or plant) in the ground in order for it to grow (resurrect) into a beautiful flower.  Likewise, if this can happen to a seed, surely it will happen to me.  The principle is the resurrection.

I am looking for a resurrection from this relentless pain one day, so that I may jump for joy of another miracle! After all, all things are possible — for as long as we have breath, we have hope!”
– Barbara

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Is GERD and Fibromyalgia Connected also?

GERD           Does anyone out there have  GERD?  I was dignosed with GERD in 2003, or thereabout.  I have no idea how I even acquired GERD.  I eat healthy very often, as I am into herbs, vitamins, and supplements.  I follow all the rules and do not buy or eat anything with MSG in it, no red meat, no pizza’s or spicy foods, green peppers, white flour, orange juice, tomatoes, onions, fried foods, citric fruits, soda pop, alcohol, and nor do I smoke any longer…yet, I have GERD.  I am not overweight, I moderately exercise, but I still have GERD.

How did I get it? Where did it come from? It is so aggravating.  I find myself holding my throat all the time just like the picture above.  Right now my throat is really irritated, and I think it is because I took my vitamin C about 5pm today with very little water.  It felt like the pill itself got stuck in my esophagus, and is still there.  It is causing my neck, and esophagus to hurt, and it hurts to swallow as if I have a lump in my throat.  I am so afraid of this GERD thing, because I know it can produce other issues that no one wants to be a recipient of.

I try to take care of myself the best I can.  After all, having Fibromyalgia, GERD, IBS, Arthritis, tendinitis, bursitis, cataracts, no sleep, and a whole lot of tag-a-longs that come with these issues, is not an easy road, but I know we all do our best.  About 7 months ago, I had the scope procedure where the doctors go down your throat to see what is going on with your GERD.  There was nothing abnormal other than the GERD.  My doctor has me on Prevacid 15 mg periodically.  I understand these type medications will do more harm than good when taken consistently.  She has me on it two weeks at a time, then takes me off for a few months.

To help relieve my GERD symptoms, I take apple cider vinegar, lactaid milk and sometimes almond milk, ginger root tea, chamomile, vitamin D, Aloe Vera Juice, anise tea, and chicory root tea.  I take other required vitamins and supplements, as well as other herbal products….yet, I still have GERD.

I checked out this site which was very interesting concerning GERD and Fibromyalgia.  I thought you might be interested as well.  http://ezinearticles.com/?Is-There-A-Link-Between-Gastric-Reflux-and-Fibromyalgia?&id=510002

If anyone out there has GERD and have problems with their throat, please share it so that I won’t feel too bad.