I Never Knew – Silence could be so LOUD!
your body and mind –
It hurts to sit, it hurts to walk, my legs hurt most of the time.
I busy about, doing things just to keep
the pain out of my head
For some strange reason it rages my body as soon as I lay in my bed.
So difficult it is to sleep at night, I toss and turn as if I am in a fight.
The headaches come light lightening and thunder –
Penetrating my brain , piercing my neck and shoulders, as I wonder –
Will this pain cease its rage, and show mercy to my inward prayers?
Though it is driven like a vengeance, just maybe a little piece of it… cares.
In spite of my pain, I know within my heart, my power of my Savior I do not doubt –
To have mercy, and release me from this invisible disability – that makes the silence of pain, so Loud.
A Savior’s job is to save his children from themselves, and what they do not understand,
Because all things, whether they comfort or sting, goes according to our Savior’s purpose and plan!
It is 3:31 a.m., and I was awakened by the silent noise of my pain
Screaming within my body,
Releasing its anger in every fiber of my being
I feel as if I am being punished for trying to sleep.
My body is resisting to freely move, as stiffness locks me into its embrace
My eyes feel like sandbags, my mind is foggy, my strength is dull,
I pray for confort, as I stare at hope it its face.
My shoulder blades are aching, as pain radiates down my lower back
The bottom of my feet is so painful, though I’ve not yet begun to walk.
Today is Friday — I was hoping to feel better,
But my pain has other plans.
Once again, time is upon me – I am hurried, or I will be late for work
Another day to toil through my fibro-fog, and pain — again,
I was awakened, and I am so thankful to be alive!